Monday, July 8, 2013

AM~Erica Gets Out and Away from Darkness

This is not a typical post. I will not be openly sharing this. But, if you do come across this post, then I hope someone learns from it.

It began with my opening blog post of the year (HERE), and it has led to this. Please pray for this situation.


I am thankful that God blessed me & led me out of the darkness I was living in. I have seen the light and recognize where the shadows lie. Now that I have seen & been in the light, and though those living in the darkness attempt to beckon me back into the ways of the shadows, I must resist that kind of black hole. If I drift back into that dark shadow, I will trip & fall from the blindness.

I continue to pray that I am continually led down the glistening and well-lit path God has shown me rather than falling back into what I clawed & crawled out of. That would be committing the most vile hypocrisy. Tricking me with a false warmth of a mere blanket or rug is no match for basking in the truest form of the sun. And I will take it in its fullest form, and not shading it with a dimmed lens.

Thanks be to God I have found firm ground to stand on and open eyes! I will not be tricked into taking that sight for granted by looking off a rocky cliff just to fall back into the barren well.

To think that wearing rose colored glasses might help you see in the darkness you live in is just a lie you are telling yourself. And the lie is evident to those around you as it is quickly obvious that you cannot truly see where you stand.

I once stepped back to the darkness thinking I was building a bridge to forgiveness while having the cold shadow fingers around my neck. After being there for a long time, I also realize the shadow moves with an ebb & flow that it is hard to realize where it will end up. I will not keep up with the darkness. I now step away from the shadows, shake the dirt from my sandals, and will run toward the light. I will no longer be held hostage by the shadow darkness. And I pray the darkness leaves my children as well. There is no need for them to get caught in the inconsistency of the shadow's hypocrisy. And it is wrong of the darkness & the shadow makers to beckon for them while they enable the shadows to block the light of the sun.

They strength I have prayed for was given to me to deal with the darkness trying to beckon me back. And I am thankful I now have the divine-given strength to know that I can face the darkness without being tricked to head back into the sadness. I will not accept the dimmed lens or the broom to sweep the darkness away for a short moment. The faith I have built to this moment has granted me the vision I needed to deal with it. Though I am shunned, the darkness is disappointed that I am not going back there to that place. I am strong enough to leave the darkness confused & bewildered as to why I refuse to drift back in that coldness in its hardworking deviousness to draw me back.

I still sin, because I am a sinner. But I also know that covering a sin to pretend I am faithful is a hypocritical sin that I cannot muster. I think for myself & am guided by God. I am covered in the blood of Christ Jesus. I have used His word. I am no prophet, but I do believe we all have prophetic moments when God needs us to lead some of his people out of the dark. The prophetic words are not always used, and when they are, it doesn't mean those the words will be accepted by those it the words were meant for. But the Word must still be delivered. And I had to deliver harsh-yet-loving words to get the darkness to disappear. And it's a message that could only have been delivered through intervention of only the Divine. Yet I am still shunned. Yet it still beckons my children.

I pray the Word of God sets into those who are still truly lost. I pray the dimmed lens will be removed, blankets & rugs will disappear, and truth is dealt with. It isn't easy to let go, but I am not going back. And maybe one day the darkness will disappear in its ever-so-volatile ebb & flow.

I'm in the light...and I am not going back!


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